It was the first day of kindergarten. Someone, I thought, had pushed my daughter. I came home crying. How was I going to send my firstborn to a place filled with strangers? How was I going to protect her? Questions I am sure many mother's can relate to. Thankfully, I have a wise mother in my life who knew what question to ask me and what to say to me.
"Kathy, Kristi has the same Holy Spirit inside of her that you have in you. Can you trust the Holy Spirit with Kristi?" said mom.(By this time Kristi had already asked Jesus to come into her heart)
With tears in my eyes, I looked at my mom and said, "NO!"
But at that moment, I realized I was putting my trust in my ability to take care of Kristi and I needed to repent to my Father God and ask His forgiveness. Down on my knees I went and repented and then asked Him to help me with my unbelief.
Fast forward to 15 or more years later. Again, I am faced with a situation I never thought I would be in. As before, my mom played an important role in my life unknowingly to her. She had given me a Beth Moore Bible study on "The Heart of David". As I was doing my Bible study there was a section that again asked the question, "can you trust, God?"
As before, I found myself realizing I really wasn't trusting God. I literally threw the book down and said, "Well, God, there is not much need in us going any further. There is not much need in my praying, until we get this issue resolved of me not trusting you is there?"
I began to repent again and walking and praying. Thank you, Jesus, for being our advocate and when we confess our sins You are faithful and just to forgive us. (I John 1:7). I began to sing an old hymn "Tis So Sweet to Trust in Jesus, just to take Him at His word."
I am so thankful for the old hymns that have stood the test of time, aren't you?
The Holy Spirit began to bring to my remembrance scriptures that I could stand on and cling to until the fight of faith was complete and victory had been won in the situation I was facing.
Psalm 50:15 in The Passion Translation says, "Honor me by trusting in me in your day of trouble. Cry aloud to me, and I will be there to rescue you. That is what I desire from you!"
The children of Israel had to daily trust Almighty God, the Holy One of Israel, to provide for their daily needs. He did so by opening the windows of heaven and raining down manna. He wouldn't allow them to take more manna than they needed each day because He wanted them to DAILY TRUST HIM.
Are you struggling with trusting God? Then I plead with you to do as I did. Recognize the lack of trust for what it is and repent. You will be so glad you did. Once you have repented the washing of the water of the word will come over you and you will find that God will direct your path and give you insight and wisdom you would not nor could have had if you did not trust Him.
Once again, I believe God is asking me to trust Him with something I believe He is asking me to do. I have been putting it off. Making excuses. Delaying my promise to Him.
Psalm 50:14 (The Passion Translation) "Why don't you bring me the sacrifices I desire? Bring me your true and sincere thanks, and show your gratitude by keeping your promises to me, the Most High.
You may wonder, what has Father God been asking you to do? To answer your question, it is to begin writing a blog. For how long? I don't know. I can tell you I will begin by doing a series of teaching on what I have been taught by the Holy Spirit about one of His gifts to the church.
If you are interested or know someone who is interested in learning more about the gift of a prayer language then please follow this blog. This will be a work in progress as I learn more about blogging.
Will you join me? Will you invite others?
If you have made a decision to TRUST and HONOR God today please share with me.
Have a blessed day! May the God of peace comfort you and bring you strength and endurance.
